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Monday, 28 November 2016

27/11/2016 听道笔记:《天国中的千禧年》安耀@海牙堂

千禧年:耶稣和他忠心的仆人一同做王1000年

今天的问题:
什么是天国、神国?
什么是千禧年?
为什么要有千禧年?
千禧年之后发生什么?

目标:认识耶稣,认识十字架

启示录20
1 我又看见一位天使从天降下,手里拿着无底坑的钥匙和一条大链子。
2 他捉住那龙,就是古蛇,又叫魔鬼,也叫撒旦,把它捆绑一千年,
3 扔在无底坑里,将无底坑关闭,用印封上,使它不得再迷惑列国。等到那一千年完了,以后必须暂时释放它。
4 我又看见几个宝座,也有坐在上面的,并有审判的权柄赐给他们。我又看见那些因为给耶稣作见证并为神之道被斩者的灵魂,和那没有拜过兽与兽像,也没有在额上和手上受过它印记之人的灵魂;他们都复活了,与基督一同做王一千年。
5 这是头一次的复活。其余的死人还没有复活,直等那一千年完了。
6 在头一次复活有份的有福了,圣洁了!第二次的死在他们身上没有权柄。他们必做神和基督的祭司,并要与基督一同做王一千年。
7 那一千年完了,撒旦必从监牢里被释放,
8 出来要迷惑地上四方的列国,就是歌革和玛各,叫他们聚集争战,他们的人数多如海沙。
9 他们上来遍满了全地,围住圣徒的营与蒙爱的城,就有火从天降下,烧灭了他们。
10 那迷惑他们的魔鬼被扔在硫磺的火湖里,就是兽和假先知所在的地方。他们必昼夜受痛苦,直到永永远远。
11 我又看见一个白色的大宝座与坐在上面的,从他面前天地都逃避,再无可见之处了。
12 我又看见死了的人,无论大小,都站在宝座前,案卷展开了;并且另有一卷展开,就是生命册。死了的人都凭着这些案卷所记载的,照他们所行的受审判。
13 于是海交出其中的死人,死亡和阴间也交出其中的死人,他们都照各人所行的受审判。
14 死亡和阴间也被扔在火湖里。这火湖就是第二次的死。
15 若有人名字没记在生命册上,他就被扔在火湖里。

《礼记》中的故事:孔子和土地经过泰山,听见女子悲伤哭泣。孔子让门徒去问她为什么哭泣,原来女子命苦,舅舅和丈夫都被老虎咬死,那天她的儿子也被老虎咬死了。孔子问,为什么她不搬走呢?女曰:这里没有苛政。孔子听到之后说:苛政猛于虎。
我们定居或迁移的原因:1)自然环境条件,2)人文、政治。
- 当然,“苛政猛于虎”不是说给百姓听的,是将给官府听的。 不是所有人都觉得苛政猛于虎,有些人更愿意忍受苛政。
- 妇人悲哀的最大原因:不是猛虎,就是苛政。
- 永远都要面对/承受一些事情,问题只是选择我们更愿意选择忍受/面对什么。这是残酷的现实,人心的见证,圣经的启示:神的判决(the fallen world)。
诗篇2:1-3
1 外邦为什么争闹,万民为什么谋算虚妄的事?
2 世上的君王一齐起来,臣宰一同商议,要抵挡耶和华并他的受膏者,
3 说:“我们要挣开他们的捆绑,脱去他们的绳索!”- 人不可能依靠自己建立一个完美的国度。

“国”在圣经中总共出现1051次 --人的国(万国万民)vs神的国(没有具体出现在旧约,但概念一直在里面,从创1-2开始)
最早的神国,就像伊甸园的样子;但是亚当背叛上帝。而神的国一开始看起来似乎没有很厉害:阻止不了亚当犯罪,也阻止不了人接下来与神为敌(巴别塔)。但是神没有对我们赶尽杀绝,祂的规划是耶稣基督的出现(2nd Adam)。
Adam vs Christ is life Saul vs David
Faith in Christ brings salvation -- both for people in old testament and new testament.
神的国已经来到,人应当悔改相信,离弃罪恶的世界(巴比伦),与基督相连。

天国子民的权益是今生和来世的(路18:30 "没有在今世不得百倍,来世不得永生的"):不是天国的门票,而是天国的护照
Recall CSLewis The great divorce: heaven works its way back in time and makes our whole lifetime a blessing from the Lord.基督徒背后是最强的国(不是美国),而是神国:风是它的使者,火是它的差役,万有都是基督造的。我们还怕什么?
林后6:9-10
"似乎不为人所知,却是人所共知的;似乎要死,却是活着的;似乎受责罚,却是不致丧命的;似乎忧愁,却是常常快乐的;似乎贫穷,却是叫许多人富足的;似乎一无所有,却是样样都有的。"
 林后4:8-10
我们四面受敌,却不被困住;心里作难,却不致失望; 遭逼迫,却不被丢弃;打倒了,却不致死亡; 身上常带着耶稣的死,使耶稣的生也显明在我们身上。
 不要临死才信:1) 一来死亡可能很突然,2) 损失,没有得到先下天国的福祉--神的全能和恩典

千禧年的观点:
(A) 前千 --- consists more different small versions
- linear timeline (relatively more literal), Christ comes before that 1000 years, establishes kingdom on earth. first ressurrection is all believers/martyrs, second is all the dead. reigning over the remaining people (form 7 bowls of disaster not all people die)

(B) 无千
- metaphorical/spiritual 1000 year reign, now we are in that reign. first ressurrection is spirit, second is bodily.
- difficulty in interpretation: 1) satan is still raging, 2) diff interpretation of the same word "ressurrection" in the same paragraph.

(C) 后千
- wrong in principle, human effort to build up a good, humanistic society. was mainstream before the world wars due to reliance on the enlightenment, reason and science/technology.

Why (possibly) an earthly kingdom?
1) 指出人的败坏:v7-9,千禧年之后,撒旦一放出来,人还是会背叛神。No excuse for us!
2) 成全旧约的应许:
Isaiah 11:6-9
豺狼必与绵羊羔同居,豹子与山羊羔同卧,少壮狮子与牛犊并肥畜同群,小孩子要牵引它们。牛必与熊同食,牛犊必与小熊同卧,狮子必吃草与牛一样。吃奶的孩子必玩耍在虺蛇的洞口,断奶的婴儿必按手在毒蛇的穴上。在我圣山的遍处,这一切都不伤人,不害物,因为认识耶和华的知识要充满遍地,好像水充满洋海一般。

Psalm 72:8-14
他要执掌权柄,从这海直到那海,从大河直到地极。住在旷野的必在他面前下拜,他的仇敌必要舔土。他施和海岛的王要进贡,示巴和西巴的王要献礼物。诸王都要叩拜他,万国都要侍奉他。因为穷乏人呼求的时候,他要搭救;没有人帮助的困苦人,他也要搭救。他要怜恤贫寒和穷乏的人,拯救穷苦人的性命。他要救赎他们脱离欺压和强暴,他们的血在他眼中看为宝贵,他们要存活。

Zechariah 14:5-11
耶和华必做全地的王,那日耶和华必为独一无二的,他的名也是独一无二的。全地,从迦巴直到耶路撒冷南方的临门,要变为亚拉巴。耶路撒冷必仍居高位,就是从便雅悯门到第一门之处,又到角门,并从哈楠业楼直到王的酒榨。 人必住在其中,不再有咒诅,耶路撒冷人必安然居住。

1 Cor 15:23-25
但各人是按着自己的次序复活:初熟的果子是基督,以后在他来的时候,是那些属基督的。 再后末期到了,那时基督既将一切执政的、掌权的、有能的都毁灭了,就把国交于父神。因为基督必要做王,等神把一切仇敌都放在他的脚下。

 Conclusion: we don't know for certain which theory is correct, but this is not a reason to ignore this text. If we really wish for the second coming, we should always go back to this text and ponder its meaning.

Sunday, 27 November 2016

A Sunday night prayer

Dear Lord,

If one day my reason (or lack of reason) fails me, please uphold me.
I remember those days, oh the days, when I wandered around in the night wailing and writhing in pain. When my self-control and reason fail to constrain myself. When the pain is simply too much to bear. When I fixed my eyes on things of the world and shriek in torment when I cannot get them. In my lungs. In my heart. In my soul. I remember the horror of looking back and dreading those distortions on my spirit. Tormenting and killing me.
Lord, forbid it that I will ever go back again.
Lord, teach me to rest in You alone. Not in my own wisdom, my own strength, my own intellect and mind, my character and morale... for those who rely on their own strength perish, but those who look unto the Lord shall rise. They shall soar like eagles. They shall run and not be weary.

I know You have redeemed me. With You as my Saviour, I never want to go back to relying on my own strength. Individual perseverance and character will eventually wear out, what do I have which is everlasting except for You?
Be my only source of strength. Be my source of hope. Be my source of wisdom and love.
I know that some sufferings in life might never be eradicated. I know I might need to suffer the ache from scars every now and then. But Lord, what is all that, compared to Your glory! Let me see Thy face. Let me dwell in Thy presence, let me abide in You. Let me see the ultimate reality -- Christ seated on the throne of heaven, at the right-hand side of the Father, my advocate and friend! The One who gave his life for me as an atoning sacrifice! What else do I need? What else do I even want? For sure, You are sufficient, and I will rejoice at the sight of Your glory. Even my suffering will be for Your glory, and therefore I praise You; even my worst nightmares exist so that You may triumph over them. The more ugly those sorrows are, the more victory comes from Your grace. Lord, let me be that child of Yours, sorrowful yet rejoicing, in pain but full of hope, under attack but at rest.

And may all glory, and praise, and honor go to my Lord Jesus Christ, King of all. In His name I pray, Amen.

Friday, 25 November 2016

父子、君臣的决裂 (撒下16:15-23 研经报告)

这段经文主要描述的是大卫和押沙龙父子关系,通过押沙龙的行为宣告了彻底的决裂。

在15章,押沙龙拉拢民心,试图谋权篡位,并在希伯伦正式开始他的反叛。押沙龙还把大卫身边的谋士亚希多弗请来了,留在身边为自己献计。大卫听闻讯息之后,带着家人、一些臣仆和祭司撤离耶路撒冷,躲避押沙龙。但是后来,大卫命令祭司撒督把约柜抬回了耶路撒冷。大卫也让他所信任的朋友户筛回到耶路撒冷迎接押沙龙,让他去假装投靠押沙龙,但实际上要暗中破坏押沙龙和亚希多弗的反叛。

押沙龙到了耶路撒冷,身边的两个谋臣都曾是大卫的亲信,如今却在押沙龙那里,所以表面上看来押沙龙大大地占了优势。大卫并没有任何直接的反击,约柜也回到了城里,一切似乎都太顺利地落在押沙龙的掌控里。但押沙龙当然知道,事情还没有结束。虽然大卫逃离了,他依然是以色列正式的王,而本来来到耶路撒冷的押沙龙就是准备与大卫狠狠交战一番(撒下15:14)、血洒耶路撒冷、杀死大卫,争夺王位的。面对这样的平静,押沙龙反而有些慌乱失措,以至于在接下来的章节中,押沙龙都是相对被动地听从两个谋士的建议。

在20-22节记录了一件很重要的事:在亚希多弗的建议下,押沙龙在以色列众人面前与大卫的妃嫔亲近。这些妃嫔是大卫唯一留下来看守宫殿的人,在某种程度上也表示大卫的王权尚未完全离开耶路撒冷。但押沙龙丝毫不顾念与大卫的父子之情,公开羞辱得罪自己的父亲。押沙龙的行为也实现了先知拿单对大卫的预言(撒下12:11-12): ‘我必从你家中兴起祸患攻击你。我必在你眼前把你的妃嫔赐给别人,他在日光之下就与她们同寝。你在暗中行这事(这事指的是他与拔示巴犯了奸淫,并杀了拔示巴的丈夫乌利亚),我却要在以色列众人面前,日光之下,报应你。’

问题是,亚希多弗为什么会提出这样的建议呢?

第一,亚希多弗认为如此做,押沙龙就能有效地向全城宣告他已经破釜沉舟地与大卫为敌,使他们父子关系决裂。因为从大卫逃离耶路撒冷的行动来看,所有人都知道大卫多少是顾念自己和押沙龙的父子之情,不愿正面交锋的。对大卫来说,押沙龙虽然反叛,他仍是自己所爱的儿子。当初押沙龙杀人,他虽大怒却不愿办案;现在押沙龙要夺权,他自然是不愿让儿子妄为,却也不忍心真的置押沙龙于死地。证据是,大卫把户筛送到押沙龙身边也只是让他暗中破坏叛乱的计划,他大可让户筛去刺杀押沙龙,但他没有。甚至在押沙龙被大卫的臣子杀死后(18章),大卫悲痛万分,说“恨不得替押沙龙死”。在16章这段经文,当所有人看见大卫如此护着押沙龙的时候,投靠押沙龙的人心里难免要想:万一大卫和押沙龙的关系修复,他们这些成了叛军的人们要怎么办?大卫可能会饶恕自己的儿子,他们却必定免不了死刑。

在这个时候,如果押沙龙不止用言语,更用行动使他和大卫之间彻底为敌,证明自己面对大卫丝毫不会心软;那么押沙龙的跟随者拥护他的心志会大大地坚定。另外,这个行为对耶路撒冷城中存留的那些仰慕尊敬大卫为王的人,也是一种警告,要让所有的民众转而顺服押沙龙。

第二,从另一个角度来看,亚希多弗会提出这样的建议,也表示这个人心中恨大卫,很有可能他早已有异心想要背叛大卫。坚定民心、巩固王权有那么多方法,直接出兵逮捕或追杀大卫都可以达到这个效果。何必这样多此一举,甚至可能激怒大卫使他反击?更何况,这个建议严重违反了神的律法,难道之前一直跟随着大卫的亚希多弗对神就毫无畏惧之心吗?

亚希多弗对大卫的不满,似乎也不是什么秘密,否则押沙龙也不会轻易在反叛、在希伯伦献祭的时候(撒下15:12)把亚希多弗请来。在撒下17,亚希多弗也向押沙龙献计追杀大卫,并只杀他一个,保全其他人性命。因此,看来亚希多弗帮助押沙龙不择手段夺取王位,为的是伤害大卫。

亚希多弗对大卫的背叛对大卫造成的痛苦,未必亚于押沙龙的攻击。在诗篇55中,大卫说,“倘若是仇敌辱骂我,我还能忍受;倘若是恨我的人欺凌我,我还可以躲开。可是,竟然是你——我志同道合的伙伴,我的挚友!”。从这首诗中可看出,大卫十分重视他和亚希多弗的交情。儿子和挚友的叛变,使大卫深受打击,转而投向神。

另外,当时在押沙龙身边的户筛虽然心向着大卫,却也无法阻止这一切的发生。虽然与大卫一同悲痛(撒下15:32),他依然需要沉住气假装投靠押沙龙,眼睁睁看着押沙龙行恶,为了等待能够毁坏押沙龙和亚希多弗计划的时机。从表面上看,押沙龙似乎胜券在握;但是他身边的两个谋士,一个暗中效忠大卫,正等待机会破坏他,另一位则不择手段地为他出主意,唆使他去行在耶和华眼中看为恶的事。押沙龙从头到尾,没有那么一点点顾虑到神,他依靠着自己的能力、谋士的计算,因此注定失败。即使耶和华的约柜在城里,也没有用。

读这段经文时,我不禁想起主耶稣曾说过的一句话(马太26:23-24):“同我蘸手在盘子里的,就是他要卖我。人子必要去世,正如经上指着他所写的,但卖人子的人有祸了!那人不生在世上倒好。” 大卫所受的惩罚是神所预定的,必然要发生的事。然而,行这事的人依然要为自己的作为负责,他们的行为在神眼里看为极恶,因此他们有祸了。亚希多弗自尽(撒下17),押沙龙战死(撒下18),他们都没有好下场,不是因为他们得罪了大卫,而是因为他们惹怒了至高神。

Monday, 31 October 2016

听道笔记:教会与邪恶权势之对抗假先知by安耀@sound cloud

启示录13:11-18

11 我又看见另有一个兽从地中上来,有两角如同羊羔,说话好像龙。 
12 它在头一个兽面前,施行头一个兽所有的权柄,并且叫地和住在地上的人拜那死伤医好的头一个兽。 
13 又行大奇事,甚至在人面前叫火从天降在地上。 
14 它因赐给它权柄在兽面前能行奇事,就迷惑住在地上的人,说要给那受刀伤还活着的兽做个像。 
15 又有权柄赐给它,叫兽像有生气,并且能说话,又叫所有不拜兽像的人都被杀害。
手受印记。
16 它又叫众人,无论大小,贫富,自主的为奴的,都在右手上或是在额上受一个印记。 
17 除了那受印记,有了兽名或有兽名数目的,都不得做买卖。 
18 在这里有智慧:凡有聪明的,可以算计兽的数目,因为这是人的数目,它的数目是六百六十六。

启示录的书写宗旨:写给教会,字字句句离不开教会,不与教会的生活脱节。这是一卷认识基督的书卷,而不是为了满足好奇心。勉励教会在混乱的时代能抱着希望等待耶稣归来。
1:4 约翰写信给亚细亚的七个教会。……
1:11 “你所看见的当写在书上,达于以弗所、士每拿、别迦摩、推雅推喇、撒狄、非拉铁非、老底嘉那七个教会。”
2-3章:针对每个教会说话
4-5章:明白敬拜的真谛
6-10章:教会领受福音使命
11章开始:属灵争战 (呼应以弗所6:12 “因我们并不是与属血气的争战,乃是与那些执政的、掌权的、管辖这幽暗世界的,以及天空属灵气的恶魔争战。”)(祷告很重要)
12章:耶稣得胜,恶魔失败了,到地上来撒野
(与撒旦的争斗是真实的,但结局已定,我们必定得胜)
13:1-10:撒旦的超级模仿秀,模仿神与神争战,想夺取人的敬拜(大红龙模仿圣父,海中的兽模仿圣子)----- 用短暂有限的“虚假的永恒”来迷惑人心

13:11-18:地中的兽模仿圣灵,出现假先知
-地上出来:暗示可能是从我们身边崛起
-两角如同羊羔(看起来良善),说话像龙(说话的内容与良善的面容相差巨大)
-圣灵为基督做见证,地中的兽引诱人去敬拜海中的兽
启示录16:13 “我又看见三个污秽的灵,好像青蛙,从龙口、兽口并假先知的口中出来。”
启示录19:20 “那兽被擒拿,那在兽面前曾行奇事、迷惑受兽印记和拜兽像之人的假先知,也与兽同被擒拿。他们两个就活活地被扔在烧着硫磺的火湖里。”
启示录20:10 “那迷惑他们的魔鬼被扔在硫磺的火湖里,就是兽和假先知所在的地方。他们必昼夜受痛苦,直到永永远远。”

怎么定义假先知?
先问真先知是什么:
not primarily“预先知道”,but成为管道把上帝的启示和话语毫无偏差地传递
a standard format: "耶和华晓谕XX先知说"、“耶和华如此说” etc
1 cor 14:1 "你们要追求爱,也要切慕属灵的恩赐,其中更要羡慕的是做先知讲道。"
假先知就是相反…… XD 颠倒扭曲是非,让人不敬拜耶稣基督、敌对基督

-教会对假先知的防备不足!
耶稣曾说 Matt7:5 “你们要防备假先知。他们到你们这里来,外面披着羊皮,里面却是残暴的狼。”
1 John 4:3 “凡灵不认耶稣,就不是出于神,这是那敌基督者的灵。你们从前听见他要来,现在已经在世上了。”
-我们好像尸体一样被践踏了没有反应!我们需要警醒!

基督徒如何对待假先知的攻击
1) 操练属灵分辨能力
用感官、感觉。但人的感觉有限(不精密)。但我们依然很依赖感官,容易看外表 --- “外貌的信息”,比如这个人谈吐的优雅、是否让你舒服,装扮,说话方式etc。我们经常不自觉用这些信息去判定我所听到的信息是否准确。
如果有著名神学院的头衔,谈吐风趣幽默,逻辑环环相扣,牵动观众……我们还会不会去翻圣经确认他说的话是否准确?
假先知 --装成光明的天使
我们看重外表头衔,而不是属灵上面使我们获益的真理
实用主义:给假先知铺平道路。20世纪成了美国的主流主要思想。1915年胡适从哥伦比亚毕业,导师是实用主义的领军人物。1954运动发表“多研究些问题,少谈些主义”。
1986年度Times风云人物邓小平:不论白猫黑猫,能抓老鼠的就是好猫。
英雄不问出处,达到目的就可以。
我们深受实用主义的害:跟孩子说“只要你考好试就可以了”。谋取利益不择手段。
连属灵生活也一样:喜乐忍耐仁义慈爱etc圣灵果子……我们用非基督的方法来得到这些(用“正能量”)。
你知道正能量是什么吗???New age spirituality and meditation! No Christ!
我们用各种非基督的方法来“成圣”,其实我们根本没有成圣……这就是为什么现在基督徒生命如此脆弱。
保罗其貌不扬,如果他今天在我们中间,我们会喜欢他讲的道吗?
不要把衡量圣经的工作交给其他人!帮助你的牧师最好的方法,就是帮他看他说的话究竟是否和圣经符合。

2) 不能将信心建立在神迹奇事上面
-兽会行大奇事,但行了再大的奇事还是虚假的
-即使科技发达,理性好像被搬上了神台;但今天的我们依然迷信、注重感觉(各种“解放”,西方人家里摆着佛头,被东方玄学、解构主义吸引)
-东方闪电的欧洲崛起

3) 更深爱神而不是爱自己
-v15 “又叫所有不拜兽像的人都被杀害。”,让你觉得自己的肉体更重要。
-最大的诱惑:不停的爱自己。

真实的属灵试探
“你们所遇见的试探,无非是人所能受的。神是信实的,必不叫你们受试探过于所能受的,在受试探的时候,总要给你们开一条出路,叫你们能忍受得住。”
666经常引发基督徒的恐惧,但不用怕一个印。神会保守我们。
666最直接的翻译就是不完全(7是完全数)。



Excerpt from "Christianity and Liberalism" by J.Gresham Machen on the doctrine of sin

Christianity differs from liberalism, then, in the first place, in its conception of God. But it also differs in its conception of man.

Modern liberalism has lost all sense of the gulf that separates the creature from the Creator; its doctrine of man follows naturally from its doctrine of God. But it is not only the creature limitations of mankind which are denied. Even more important is another difference. According to the Bible, man is a sinner under the just condemnation of God; according to modern liberalism, there is really no such thing as sin. At the very root of the modern liberal movement is the loss of the consciousness of sin.

The consciousness of sin was formerly the starting-point of all preaching; but today it is gone. Characteristic of the modern age, above all else, is a supreme confidence in human goodness; the religious literature of the day is redolent of that confidence. Get beneath the rough exterior of men, we are told, and we shall discover enough self-sacrifice to found upon it the hope of society; the world's evil, it is said, can be overcome with the world's good; no help is needed from outside the world.

What has produced this satisfaction with human goodness? What has become of the consciousness of sin? The consciousness of sin has certainly been lost. But what has removed it from the hearts of men?

In the first place, the war has perhaps had something to do with the change. In time of war, our attention is called so exclusively to the sins of other people that we are sometimes inclined to forget our own sins. Attention to the sins of other people is, indeed, sometimes necessary. It is quite right to be indignant against any oppression of the weak which is being carried on by the strong. But such a habit of mind, if made permanent, if carried over into the days of peace, has its dangers. It joins forces with the collectivism of the modern state to obscure the individual, personal character of guilt. If John Smith beats his wife nowadays, no one is so old-fashioned as to blame John Smith for it. On the contrary, it is said, John Smith is evidently the victim of some more of that Bolshevistic propaganda; Congress ought to be called in extra session in order to take up the case of John Smith in an alien and sedition law.

But the loss of the consciousness of sin is far deeper than the war; it has its roots in a mighty spiritual process which has been active during the past seventy-five years. Like other great movements, that process has come silently--so silently that its results have been achieved before the plain man was even aware of what was taking place. Nevertheless, despite all superficial continuity, a remarkable change has come about within the last seventy-five years. The change is nothing less than the substitution of paganism for Christianity as the dominant view of life. Seventy-five years ago, Western civilization, despite inconsistencies, was still predominantly Christian; today it is predominantly pagan.

In speaking of "paganism," we are not using a term of reproach. Ancient Greece was pagan, but it was glorious, and the modern world has not even begun to equal its achievements. What, then, is paganism? The answer is not really difficult. Paganism is that view of life which finds the highest goal of human existence in the healthy and harmonious and joyous development of existing human faculties. Very different is the Christian ideal. Paganism is optimistic with regard to unaided human nature' whereas Christianity is the religion of the broken heart.

In saying that Christianity is the religion of the broken heart, we do not mean that Christianity ends with the broken heart; we do not mean that the characteristic Christian attitude is a continual beating on the breast or a continual crying of "Woe is me." Nothing could be further from the fact. On the contrary, Christianity means that sin is faced once for all, and then is cast, by the grace of God, forever into the depths of the sea. The trouble with the paganism of ancient Greece, as with the paganism of modern times, was not in the superstructure, which was glorious, but in the foundation, which was rotten. There was always something to be covered up; the enthusiasm of the architect was maintained only by ignoring the disturbing fact of sin. In Christianity, on the other hand, nothing needs to be covered up. The fact of sin is faced squarely once for all, and is dealt with by the grace of God. But then, after sin has been removed by the grace of God, the Christian can proceed to develop joyously every faculty that God has given him. Such is the higher Christian humanism--a humanism founded not upon human pride but upon divine grace.

But although Christianity does not end with the broken heart, it does begin with the broken heart; it begins with the consciousness of sin. Without the consciousness of sin, the whole of the gospel will seem to be an idle tale. But how can the consciousness of sin be revived? Something no doubt can be accomplished by the proclamation of the law of God, for the law reveals transgressions. The whole of the law, moreover, should be proclaimed. It will hardly be wise to adopt the suggestion (recently offered among many suggestions as to the ways in which we shall have to modify our message in order to retain the allegiance of the returning soldiers) that we must stop treating the little sins as though they were big sins. That suggestion means apparently that we must not worry too much about the little sins, but must let them remain unmolested.

With regard to such an expedient, it may perhaps be suggested that in the moral battle we are fighting against a very resourceful enemy, who does not reveal the position of his guns by desultory artillery action when he plans a great attack. In the moral battle, as in the Great European War, the quiet sectors are usually the most dangerous. It is through the "little sins" that Satan gains an entrance into our lives. Probably, therefore, it will be prudent to watch all sectors of the front and lose no time about introducing the unity of command.

But if the consciousness of sin is to be produced, the law of God must be proclaimed in the lives of Christian people as well as in word. It is quite useless for the preacher to breathe out fire and brimstone from the pulpit, if at the same time the occupants of the pews go on taking sin very lightly and being content with the more' standards of the world. The rank and file of the Church must do their part in so proclaiming the law of God by their lives that the secrets of men's hearts shall be revealed.

All these things, however, are in themselves quite insufficient to produce the consciousness of sin. The more one observes the condition of the Church, the more one feels obliged to confess that the conviction of sin is a great mystery' which can be produced only by the Spirit of God. Proclamation of the law, in word and in deed, can prepare for the experience, but the experience itself comes from God. When a man has that experience, when a man comes under the conviction of sin, his whole attitude toward life is transformed; he wonders at his former blindness, and the message of the gospel, which formerly seemed to be an idle tale, becomes now instinct with light. But it is God alone who can produce the change.

Only, let us not try to do without the Spirit of God.

The fundamental fault of the modern Church is that she is busily engaged in an absolutely impossible task--she is busily engaged in calling the righteous to repentance. Modern preachers are trying to bring men into the Church without requiring them to relinquish their pride; they are trying to help men avoid the conviction of sin. The preacher gets up into the pulpit, opens the Bible, and addresses the congregation somewhat as follows: "You people are very good," he says; "you respond to every appeal that looks toward the welfare of the community. Now we have in the Bible--especially in the life of Jesus--something so good that we believe it is good enough even for you good people." Such is modern preaching. It is heard every Sunday in thousands of pulpits. But it is entirely futile. Even our Lord did not call the righteous to repentance, and probably we shall be no more successful than He.

Sunday, 30 October 2016

"The Author of the Greatest Letter ever Written", Romans Series no. 1, John Piper

Romans 1:1-7

1 Paul, a servant of Christ Jesus, called to be an apostle and set apart for the gospel of God— 
2 the gospel he promised beforehand through his prophets in the Holy Scriptures 
3 regarding his Son, who as to his earthly life was a descendant of David, 
4 and who through the Spirit of holiness was appointed the Son of God in power by his resurrection from the dead: Jesus Christ our Lord. 
5 Through him we received grace and apostleship to call all the Gentiles to the obedience that comes from faith for his name’s sake. 
6 And you also are among those Gentiles who are called to belong to Jesus Christ.
7 To all in Rome who are loved by God and called to be his holy people:
Grace and peace to you from God our Father and from the Lord Jesus Christ.

- the way to be lastingly relevant, is taking stand on old, tried, unshakable truths
- Romans: solid, durable, thorough

- a rather "personal" book --- Paul has a lot to say about himself
- two distinctive approaches in preaching: completely without pastor's personal perspective, but sometimes a good personal perspective is a living testimony to God's Word

1) all of sinned and fallen short of the glory of God (Rom 3:23)
2) the wages of sin is death (Rom 6:23)
3) God demonstrates His love for us in while we were sinners Christ died for us (Rom 5:8)
4) therefore if you will confess and believe, you will be saved (Rom 10:9)

- went to college, aspiring to go to med school and be doctor
- went to hospital because of sickness, then God moved Piper to spread God's Word instead
- moved to a single room in hostel, to pursue God and quiet time (how have I, in contrast, used the space given to me?)
- Man made new, John Stott (Rom 5-8)
- seminary: Romans 1-8 (Daniel Fuller), Unity of the Bible in Rom 9-11
- calling: away from seminary Bethel, to pastorate

- I, the God of Romans 9 will be proclaimed and heralded, not just analyzed and explained
- a "Blaise Pascal" moment: Fire!
("From about half-past ten in the evening until about half-past twelve … FIRE … God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, the God of Jacob, and not of the philosophers and savants. Certitude. Certitude. Feeling. Joy. Peace."
He recorded the experience (called the "Mé;morial") on a piece of parchment, which he carried with him the rest of his life, sewed inside his coat. He began a life-long association with Port-Royal—though he, unlike his sister, never became a "solitaire.")

how did a former Pharisee who hated Christianity, killed the first Christian martyr, persecuted church violently ----> wrote a book in the Bible that changed the face of the world?
v1: 3 words ---> bonded by, called by, set apart for .... SOMEONE ELSE is in this verse
--- not WHO am I, but WHOSE am I?
- the ultimate question is not what we are like, but Who we belong to
1) bondservant of Christ Jesus
-- JC was (according to Tacitus, Josephus etc) dead! and Paul says that JC is his master, that He is alive.
2) bought, owned by Jesus: we are owned doubly by God: by virtue of creation and redemption
-- to please God (Gal 1:10) "For do I now persuade men, or God? or do I seek to please men? for if I yet pleased men, I should not be the servant of Christ."
    ~ therefore do not please men (unless it glorifies God)
3) set apart for the gospel
-- from his mother's womb (predestined, Gal 1:15) --- huge detour!! resonates with Rom 11:33
-- God chose someone and allowed him to venture into the depths of sin, later still willing to use him

Leon Morris: frequency of "God" in this chapter extremely high
Rom 11:36 "For of him, and through him, and to him, are all things: to whom be glory for ever. Amen."

Friday, 28 October 2016

小要理默想一周后,目光停在这样一段经文上。

记得曾经对我来说最难接受的事,就是发现自己的人生中似乎没有什么可以恒久相信的。不再相信别人口中的是非对错之分,不再相信人心,不再相信身边的人,甚至不再相信自己的判断。
所以特别感恩,当神的话语再次出现自己的生命中,是祂让我再次看见这世上只有一个完全信实,完全良善,完全可靠,完全公义…完全对,却又完全爱的,那就是祂自己。因为有祂,生命中才有了一个定点,一个必不动摇的高台。这不代表人生中失去了变化而变得乏味,而是在千变万化中,终究有个东西是不变的,是能包容涵盖一切的。也因此,我不再害怕变化。

Wednesday, 26 October 2016

Love one another

http://mp.weixin.qq.com/s?__biz=MzA3MTE2ODAyNA==&mid=2650548714&idx=3&sn=db55644b648be55de79fd3db67eb63b5&chksm=8739309db04eb98b55eff6803e14d0ed26f890358c8957727d670aaba112e541cd768ac35575&scene=0#wechat_redirect

真该悔改。愿神帮助我们每一个人,真正懂得以基督的爱去温柔地爱人。

Monday, 17 October 2016

Reflections on the Westminster Shorter Catechism 1-3

1 问:人生的首要目的是什么?
答:人生的首要目的就是荣耀上帝, 并以他为乐,直到永远。

默想:
我相信这个答案吗?如果相信,我认为荣耀上帝的最好方式,又是什么?马上浮现在脑海中的就是把这个世界其余一切的事情都抛弃,当全职传道人去。但是,这必定不是唯一的方法,也不是神对每个人的旨意。荣耀神的最好方式,是顺从祂;既然要顺从祂,就必须先知道祂的旨意是什么。那么,神对我们的旨意是什么呢?
1. Place our absolute trust in Him, in the work of Christ which has become our righteousness.
2. Rid ourselves of sin and ungodly desires that distract us from godly ones.
3. Rejoice in Him, listen to Him to know Him better, rely on Him in all we do.
我要如何在工作上荣耀神?
Be a person of integrity, honesty, responsible, yet humble and patient and kind towards others. Always keep my promises, or simply don't promise. Not being a people pleaser, but focus on doing good and right things, so that He is ultimately pleased.
我要如何在人际关系上荣耀神?
Love people. Watch out for my brothers and sisters, lest they stumble and offend the true and living God. Be ready to correct them, not with my own perception but measuring them with God's Word, and convey each word with gentle and loving kindness. Be always prepared to accept correction myself. 
我要如何在生活中荣耀神?
不用任何盗版作品。谨慎守法。不花时间在毫无建设性的“娱乐”上,渴慕神的话语超越一切。常常知足感恩。

2 问:上帝赐给我们什么准则以指导我们荣耀他,并以他为乐呢?
答:记载于旧新约圣经中的上帝的话语,是指导我们荣耀他,并以他为乐的惟一准则。
3 问:圣经对人主要的教训是什么?
答:圣经对人主要的教训是:人对上帝当信什么,并且上帝要人当尽什么责任。

默想:
我珍惜上帝的话语吗?我真的用它做为准则,以便在人生中做决定吗?其实之前,很多人生中重要的决定我并没有这样做。比如说,我选专业、选择出国深造(不管是去新加坡,还是来Delft)、决定交男朋友、并没有强烈的圣经根据。我或许遵守一些圣经上的道德准则,但那更多是因为它们跟自己内心的准则重叠。
到底有哪些时候,我自己内心所想和圣经不同的时候,我选择了圣经的话语呢?
真该悔改。

Sunday, 16 October 2016

16/10/2016 海雅堂听道笔记:万王之王,万主之主 安耀

经文:启示录19章11-21节
接着,我看见天开了,看哪,有一匹白马。骑马的那一位被称为“信实的”和“真实的”;他以公义去审判、去作战。
他的眼睛像火焰,头上戴着许多王冠。他有一个写好的名字,除了他自己以外,没有人认识这名字。
他身穿一件浸过血的袍子;他的名字叫“神的话语”。
天上的军兵,都骑着白马,身穿洁白干净的细麻衣,跟随着他。
从他口中发出一把利剑,好用它来击打列国。他将用铁杖治理列国,并且要践踏酒榨,就是神、全能者烈怒的酒榨。
在他的袍子上、大腿上写着一个名号:“万王之王,万主之主。”
随后,我看见一位天使站在太阳中,对所有在空中飞翔的鸟大声呼喊说:“来吧,聚集起来赴神的大宴席,
为要吃君王的肉、军官的肉、壮士的肉、马和骑士的肉,以及各种人的肉,包括自由人和奴隶,卑微人和尊贵人的肉。”
接着,我看见那兽和地上的众君王以及他们的军兵聚集在一起,要与骑白马的那一位和他的军队作战。
但那兽被抓了;那假先知也与它一起被抓了——他在兽面前行了许多奇迹,藉此迷惑那些接受兽的印记并膜拜兽像的人。兽和那假先知两个都活生生地被丢进燃烧着硫磺的火湖里。
其余的人,也都被骑白马那一位口中所发出的剑杀死了。所有的鸟都吃饱了他们的肉。---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
开场:
每个人内心都有秘密。藏得越深,动机极可能就越不善。但是其实一般人也对你的秘密不感兴趣,除非他要完全地走进你的生活,比如说,与你结婚。所以,婚姻可以说是发现彼此秘密的过程。
我们每个人内心最大的秘密,就是我们是软弱的、有罪的人。
荷兰改革宗婚礼牧师的宣告:因为有罪,所以结婚的人往往有许多愁烦。问题不出在婚姻本身,而是在罪人本身。婚姻是一件神所设计的美好事情,but man cannot measure up to it.

灵命的健康程度检验:是否渴慕神的话语?
雅歌1:4 “愿你吸引我,我们就快跑跟随你。王带我进了内室。我们必因你欢喜快乐,我们要称赞你的爱情,胜似称赞美酒。她们爱你是理所当然的!”
不要担心在和神相处的过程里,会逐渐出现对祂的失望、尴尬。因为神不是像我们那样的人。他圣洁完美,和祂在一起永远不会失望。

启示录的核心:基督的再来,公义的审判,神所命定的结局。

基督的再来:
1) 必然在众目睽睽之下、毫无隐藏地再来
2) 显出万王之王,万主之主的公义,实行审判

(1)使徒信经
基督的神人二性
-耶稣受死之前,在地上的时候神性被人性压缩限制(这是自限的神性),不是无所不知、无所不能、无处不在。连行神迹也是通过生灵充满。但是复活之后,神性完全恢复,而且祂的人性享得了神性的能力。
-神人二性地升天。
-坐在父神的右边
-Q:if Christ is coming back, then where is He now? A: at the right hand of the Father. Q: but then why do we keep saying that Jesus is with us?
A: 祂的神性与我们同在。
-side track: not relying on visions of the bodily Christ, but in spiritual we as Christians should have all seen Christ before already. 自从耶稣升天,就没有人见过耶稣的实体。
Acts 1: 9-11
说了这话,他们正看的时候,他就被取上升,有一朵云彩把他接去,便看不见他了。
当他往上去,他们定睛望天的时候,忽然有两个人身穿白衣站在旁边,说:
“加利利人哪,你们为什么站着望天呢?这离开你们被接升天的耶稣,你们见他怎样往天上去,他还要怎样来。”
-耶稣的再来必是每个人肉眼所能观察到的
in contrast to the false teachers: 
(A) 宣称自己看见基督,宣称耶稣要对信徒讲话,试图超越圣经的权利 
(B) 耶稣已经来了,是“偷偷”地回来的。

v1 
天开了:不是“天开了一扇门”(像约翰之前启示录4:1),也不是“天开了一条缝”,而是天彻底地开了。天下的人都会看到。
骑白马的:没有先头部队,直接毫无阻拦地来

马太福音24:23-32
那時,若有人對你們說:基督在這裡,或說:基督在那裡,你們不要信!
因為假基督、假先知將要起來,顯大神蹟、大奇事,倘若能行,連選民也就迷惑了。
看哪,我預先告訴你們了。
若有人對你們說:看哪,基督在曠野裡,你們不要出去!或說:看哪,基督在內屋中,你們不要信!
閃電從東邊發出,直照到西邊。人子降臨,也要這樣。
屍首在哪裡,鷹也必聚在那裡。
那些日子的災難一過去,日頭就變黑了,月亮也不放光,眾星要從天上墜落,天勢都要震動。
那時,人子的兆頭要顯在天上,地上的萬族都要哀哭。他們要看見人子,有能力,有大榮耀,駕著天上的雲降臨。
他要差遣使者,用號筒的大聲,將他的選民,從四方(方:原文是風),從天這邊到天那邊,都招聚了來。

如果基督来了,不需要有人告诉你!
异端:耶和华见证人,摩门教,东方闪电
- 耶和华见证:推测1874年耶稣要再来。结果耶稣没有再来,他们却撒下满天大谎说耶稣已经来了。
- 东方闪电:根本不配做异端。是邪教,撒旦的帮凶,教会的仇敌。专门来破坏基督教。扭曲经文说东方发出的闪电意思是中国会出一个女基督,已经临到泰山顶上。创始人:赵维山。在河南省开始与呼喊派信徒合并。把自己立为全权的主、全能神。一个女性被立成女基督。它不会去吸收教会以外的会员,只会去渗透到教会内部,之前专门用美色、金钱、权利,甚至暴力和绑架去对付传道人,无所不用其极。
-赵维山被抓,坐牢三年,释放后逃到美国继续全国荼毒宣传。

教会本来以为这些人不可能发展起来,因为他们的神学观、教义等等,毫无逻辑,荒唐至极。但是海外的教会受到很大的冲击,异端很有市场!why?!
例子:朋友的太太在火车上遇见ex姊妹,现在参加异端组织。朋友太太说“你不能去,那是异端啊”。那位姊妹反而回应:你们是真教会,但你们为什么不讲圣经呢?说的都是人情伦理,你凭什么说人家是异端呢?
真是何等讽刺。我们众信徒和教会真当一同悔改。
我们本来应该渴慕神的话语,但是我们更喜欢听一些轻松的,世界的言论。道德的假述。我们讲一些神学、教义,就觉得板凳很硬,很无趣。甚至将知识与生命对立起来。
何西阿书4:6
我的民因無知識而滅亡。你棄掉知識,我也必棄掉你,使你不再給我作祭司。你既忘了你神的律法,我也必忘記你的兒女。

(2)当年耶稣骑着小驴驹进耶路撒冷,但是祂再来的时候必骑白马。
- no 风度威严 etc (甚至可笑,因为不成比例)。谦谦卑卑柔柔和和进来。但是他再来的时候,不会是这个样子了。他是最高的王最高的主。
- 他是救赎主,也是审判之主。完全掌权。
- Heb 10:12 但基督獻了一次永遠的贖罪祭,就在神的右邊坐下了。
only once, is enough! and now He is KING,治理所有.

Sunday, 9 October 2016

Meditations on worship leading

Today I had an intense discussion with S7, Michelle and Xiong about some issues. After that, I learnt a lesson. It is far more important to consider His thoughts and feelings, and to please Him; than to please men (or women).
I've never thought of myself as a people pleaser. I almost never cared what others think of me. However, I guess since I became a Christian, I have regarded other people's feelings/emotions more valuable and worth consideration. Perhaps even a bit too much. Especially when facing pre-believers, I always make it a priority to let them have a positive emotion/experience when it comes to matters of faith. Sometimes, even to the point of forgetting what God feels about it, or carelessly assuming that God will have the same feelings/thoughts that I have. That I consider not on the basis of who God is from His Word, but how I think He is.
This discussion also helped me to appreciate the meaning of worship leading more. It also makes me recall the days when I didn't dare to join in the church choir, because I didn't want to enjoy the singing more than I enjoy God, and I didn't want to rely on my "good performance" when standing in front of God. But indeed, this position is not glamourous, but sacred. Sing it while meaning 1% less than what the exact words say, and that might make you deserving of death.
Love people, not by trying to make them happy, but by gently guiding them towards what you know to be true. Sometimes, that might make them sad for a while. Maybe it will be 1 week, maybe 10 years. But at least, if they eventually see the truth, it will be joy for eternity.

9/10/2016 海雅堂听道笔记:进入羔羊永恒的婚筵 安耀

启示录 19:1-10
1 这些事以后,我听见天上有大声音,好像一大群人的声音,说:“哈利路亚!救恩、荣耀、权能都属于我们的神!
2 因为他的审判是真实的、公义的,因为他审判了那用自己的淫乱败坏大地的大淫妇,
并且为他奴仆们的血,向那淫妇讨回了公道。”
3 他们第二次说:“哈利路亚!焚烧她时的烟往上冒,直到永永远远!”
4 二十四位长老和四个活物就俯伏敬拜那坐在宝座上的神,说:“阿们!哈利路亚!”
5 随后,有声音从宝座上传来,说:“神所有的奴仆们哪,所有敬畏他的,无论卑微尊贵,你们要赞美我们的神!”宣告羔羊婚宴。
6 接着,我听见好像一大群人的声音,也像众水的声音,又像大雷鸣的声音,说:“哈利路亚!因为我们的主、神、全能者做王了!
7 让我们欢喜、快乐,让我们把荣耀归给他!因为羔羊婚宴的时候到了,
他的新娘也把自己预备好了;
8 新娘被准许穿戴明亮洁白的细麻衣。”原来,这细麻衣代表圣徒们的义行。
9 随后,那位天使对我说:“你当写下:那些被邀请赴羔羊婚宴的人是蒙福的!”他又对我说:“这些都是神真实的话语。” 
10 我就俯伏在他的脚前,要敬拜他。可是他对我说:“你要注意,不可这样!我与你和你的弟兄们—那些持守有关耶稣见证的,都是同做奴仆的。你应当敬拜神!因为有关耶稣的见证,才是预言的灵魂所在。”

得胜
我们的错觉:神击败了一个强而有力的对手i.e.魔鬼,所以我们要宣扬欢呼祂的胜利
实际上:神根本没有对手!魔鬼的对抗从根本上就是徒劳的,但是“得胜”代表的是神的计划/旨意正在被彰显、实践出来。
18-20章说了各种不同的事情在发生,这些事情不一定有时间前后的顺序,也不一定是根据主题排列,似乎看起来很零散:但它们都在描述一件事情,就是神的旨意,祂的荣耀和公义正在被彰显。
deterministic evolution -- 从创世纪1:1 “起初,神创造天地”开始,一直到世界的末了,一切都在按神的旨意发展 (this is the core)

19:6-10 羔羊的婚筵,代表着圣徒教会和耶稣基督的合一
从17章开始买下的伏笔构成对比:大淫妇vs新妇
- 看到大淫妇(也就是世俗的罪恶世界)
- 现在大淫妇得到了神的报应,圣徒在观看
*圣徒的欢呼说的是“Hallelujah” -- 这个词在圣经中出现得其实不多,在诗篇总共出现24次(在诗篇,合和本采用意思来翻译“要赞美耶和华!”),其他的次数就全部出现在启示录这一章里面,总共4次,采用音译。其中3次都是对神公义的赞美。
*想要表达的意思是,圣徒的欢乐并不是出于一群怨气很重的人看到自己的仇人遭报,所以幸灾乐祸。而是看到神的公义正在通过恶人的毁灭被彰显。

我们应当:
1. 赞美神的公义,彰显在不信的世界和不信的人身上,他们所遭受的刑罚 -- 不是出自苦毒愤恨,而是定睛神的公义 -- 才能真正地爱那些失丧的灵魂
2. 社会的生活和法制秩序上 --- 法律部分地彰显神的公义
罗马书13:3-4“統治者不是要使行善的人懼怕,而是要使作惡的人懼怕。
你要不怕當政者,就得行善,他就會嘉許你;
因為他是上帝所使用的人,他的工作是對你有益處的。
如果你作惡,你就得怕他,因為他的懲罰並非兒戲。
他是上帝所使用的人,要執行上帝對那些作惡的人的懲罰。”
- 因此我们要凡事守规矩、敬虔度日:交税、遵守版权etc
还有我们每个人与生具来、神所赐的良心 -- 不要自欺,神是轻慢不得的。
人种什么就收什么。加拉太書 6:8 因為順著自己肉體撒種的,就會從肉體收衰朽;順著聖靈撒種的,就會從聖靈收永恆的生命。
人犯错时所承受的代价,是神公义的彰显。如果顺情欲撒种行事,就一定收到败坏的后果,这是神所给的公义,是祂对我们的管教。以谦卑的心去接受神的管教。
3. 在我们不能理解的事情上面赞美神 -- 耶利米哀歌说“我们罪人受到了刑罚,还有什么可说的呢?”
- 无法靠人的理性去理解灾难和意外的发生,但
凡出于神的都是公义,在祂毫无不义。
- example:《我心灵得安宁》作者的故事
“上帝的公义是什么,难道是夺取他儿子和四个女儿?他说,‘上帝的公义显在自己的儿子钉十字架身上除掉我一切的罪’”。it is well, the will of God be done.
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personal meditations:
神的公义,大概是一件最难消化的事情吧。尤其是当在这个世界中,我们总是看到那么多的事情在我们眼里是多么不公义。我们很容易去问,神为什么让这些事情发生。但是,神公义的彰显,恶人遭报不一定是立刻发生的,但终有一天必定发生。所以被局限于时间线上某处的我们,对于自己知道得有限的事情,又有什么立场和资格去判断事情是否公义?……从一个更根本的角度我们可以继续追问,为什么这个世界要有苦难和邪恶 to begin with?why can't we, for example, just have world peace?well, one answer is that human beings, as free beings themselves, don't want world peace -- at least, not everyone wants it and are willing to tolerate differences between each other. then you may ask why God allow human beings to have free will anyway? and the only answer that can be given, I suppose, is that God thought it worthy to have free beings, even if the price of temporary evil has to be paid...... that is God's way, His design, His plan. 
Either 1) there is no plan, and everything just unfolds spontaneously according to a materialist's viewpoint, or 2) human beings use their consciousness and intellect to drive the material world, therefore defining and controlling the course of history, or 3) that there is a plan, defined by God and will take its course. Either way, we have to deal with it. I'd, personally, rather deal with option 3. because, there is no hope if there is no plan, or if the plan is defined by man. Only with God, there can be hope.
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欧洲古代婚礼的规矩:结婚前一个月要把结婚通知贴在教会布告栏上,任何人,如果知悉要结婚的两个人有奸淫、不贞、重婚等行为,都拥有权利站出来反对这场婚礼。
婚姻的圣洁,公义,排他性
- 羔羊的婚礼,再次提醒我们:神和我们的关系就像是婚姻的关系
Hosea 2:19-20 
“我必聘你永遠歸我為妻,以仁義、公平、慈愛、憐憫聘你歸我;
也以誠實聘你歸我,你就必認識我─耶和華。”
夫妻关系很奇妙,明明是一点血缘关系都没有的人,因为应许和约定,成为了世上最有关系的人。Gen 2:24 “因此,人要離開父母,與妻子聯合,二人成為一體。”
所以神配合的,人不能分开。基督和祂的子民正是神所配合的!
信实不变
婚礼中的高潮部分,誓言 --- 天堂就是一场永恒的婚筵,永远在那个高潮,神用祂的誓言和爱来永恒地环绕我们

v8 
建筑的比喻:盖房子最花时间的是什么?其实不是打地基,也不是盖房子本身,而是把地基和楼本身连接在一起 --- this defines most of the construction。
不管地基再深,你如果不把它跟整栋建筑连在一起,把整个建筑“插在地上”,那你只是在一个很坚固的磐石上“堆积木”。
don't think you can gain benefit from a deep and strong base by just "standing" or "piling" on top of it.
back to v8: by works or by faith? of course by faith. so why say works here?
question posed to anyao by pre-believer: 不是所有的宗教都一样吗,都叫人行善?
NO. 其他所有宗教都叫人行善,只有基督教说人行不了善。我们只能仰望依靠耶稣的善,而行为是通过对耶稣的信心自然而然流露出来的表现。

v9-10
what is John doing? :P
in Revelation, there are 13 times where it says, "你当写下", and every time except here, this was spoken by Christ Himself. so perhaps this is a reflexive act of John, to bow down before the angel?
but notice what the angel says here, that all of them, both man and angel, are servants of Christ. 我们要做的事,就是把神的话语刻在自己的心板上,也帮忙刻在别人的心板上。
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last meditations:
天父的爱,何其深长。
作为新妇的我们虽在等待见祂的面,却也知道,祂也在等待。祂的等待,祂的盼望让我们见到祂,想必比我们更深沉。但是,祂知道时候还没有到,我们依然需要预备自己来朝见祂。
还是安耀前几周的证道那句话:敬虔度日。生活得无可指摘,等待安然见主的那天。

Wednesday, 5 October 2016

教会与邪恶权势的争战之对抗虚假的永恒-安耀 听道笔记

不同的圣经部分,容易理解的成都不同:
有一些直接可以理解、有共鸣、容易消化(像诗篇);
有一些需要稍微处理+分段,但还是相对好理解(像新约书信);
有一些“壳很硬、扎手”,需要许多背景知识才能理解,难懂(像先知书、启示录)。

启示录13:1-10
1 我又看見一個獸從海中上來,有十角七頭,在十角上戴著十個冠冕,七頭上有褻瀆的名號。
2 我所看見的獸,形狀像豹,腳像熊的腳,口像獅子的口。那龍將自己的能力、座位、和大權柄都給了他。
3 我看見獸的七頭中,有一個似乎受了死傷,那死傷卻醫好了。全地的人都希奇跟從那獸,
4 又拜那龍─因為他將自己的權柄給了獸,也拜獸,說:誰能比這獸,誰能與他交戰呢?
5 又賜給他說誇大褻瀆話的口,又有權柄賜給他,可以任意而行四十二個月。
6 獸就開口向神說褻瀆的話,褻瀆神的名並他的帳幕,以及那些住在天上的。
7 又任憑他與聖徒爭戰,並且得勝;也把權柄賜給他,制伏各族、各民、各方、各國。
8 凡住在地上、名字從創世以來沒有記在被殺之羔羊生命冊上的人,都要拜他。
9 凡有耳的,就應當聽!
10 擄掠人的,必被擄掠;用刀殺人的,必被刀殺。聖徒的忍耐和信心就是在此。

-人的两重争战:与老我的争战(成圣之路),与撒旦的争战(让人跌倒,敬拜它自己,离开真神)
-不是靠着自己的血气,乃是靠着基督的得胜
上文:12章
v9 大龍就是那古蛇,名叫魔鬼,又叫撒但,是迷惑普天下的。他被摔在地上,他的使者也一同被摔下去。
12v17 那時龍就站在海邊的沙上。

Q:why海边?
A:表现出魔鬼敌对上帝的野心,迷惑列国的诡计。魔鬼在能力上无法超越神,因为它没有神所拥有的权柄,所以它敌对神的方式,是装做、模仿神。
例子 -- 模仿三位一体真神:
1) 模仿圣父
-12:17大红龙模仿圣父,因为在4:2-6圣父坐在宝座前,有如同水晶的玻璃海。
2) 模仿圣子
-13:1海中出来的兽模仿圣子,13:3说“有一個似乎受了死傷,那死傷卻醫好了”。它们之间的dynamic像圣父和圣子(v2)。
-13:1 -- 字面上的形容就可以判断邪恶的属性。多头的动物,在各种不同的神话中代表邪恶、很有能力(死不了)。多头也象征自我敌对、撒旦势力的混乱。对比在上帝的创造中,大部分的生物、系统,都是只有一个头(首领),和谐的。more examples: Christ is the head of the church, husband is the head of the wife etc.
-虽然撒旦和魔鬼一心敌对神,但他们之间彼此也是仇恨相杀的(recall Screwtape letters)。
-没有秩序,暴力和凶杀的本质(十个角、十个冠冕etc)。
-亵渎的名号。“亵渎”更多出现在旧约 -- 亵渎神的名、祂的属性,亵渎等于是不承认神。(cross ref: Matt 12:32, 1 Tim 1:13)
3)模仿圣灵
13:11有个从地上来的兽。

魔鬼的诡计:v3-4
“有一個似乎受了死傷,那死傷卻醫好了”
-跟之前暴力形象,本来以为人会觉得害怕后退;但实际上人却来拜兽。why?这是魔鬼模仿耶稣基督的复活,让人以为短暂、有限的世界是永恒的,而借助于魔鬼的能力就能有终极的意义,可以不朽,达到永恒,脱离苦难,不需要神。
-我们对这个世界的东西有虚假的盼望,希望它能永恒。内心总希望青春不死,童年永驻。
-人其实很渺小:思想,情操,道德,知识,理性etc
-伟人的“雕像”却给我们永恒的illusion
“自由万岁”,“人性万岁”,“平等万岁”,“理性万岁”,“金钱万岁”,“科学万岁”,“爱情万岁”,“博爱万岁”,“民主万岁”……

罗马书1:18-25
原來,神的忿怒從天上顯明在一切不虔不義的人身上,就是那些行不義阻擋真理的人。
神的事情,人所能知道的,原顯明在人心裡,因為神已經給他們顯明。
自從造天地以來,神的永能和神性是明明可知的,雖是眼不能見,但藉著所造之物就可以曉得,叫人無可推諉。
因為,他們雖然知道神,卻不當作神榮耀他,也不感謝他。他們的思念變為虛妄,無知的心就昏暗了。
自稱為聰明,反成了愚拙,
將不能朽壞之神的榮耀變為偶像,彷彿必朽壞的人和飛禽、走獸、昆蟲的樣式。
所以,神任憑他們逞著心裡的情慾行污穢的事,以致彼此玷辱自己的身體。
他們將神的真實變為虛謊,去敬拜事奉受造之物,不敬奉那造物的主;主乃是可稱頌的,直到永遠。阿們!

-人却永远不自禁地把永恒的观念放在那些会朽坏的木头、石头、珍珠、宝石;和金钱、权利是一样的。

-魔鬼的模仿欺骗世人,这模仿是拙劣的,耶稣基督所成就的、依靠祂可得的永恒是真实的!在末世的日子,信靠祂的人将复活,与他一同为王( heirs with Christ :) ),直到永远。只有在基督里面才有万岁,进入基督的万岁里面!

v7,8
-相信神的主权:神允许魔鬼去迷惑那些拒绝真神的人,一切都在神的掌权当中
-更深地依靠神,即使在邪恶势力猖獗

v10
A closer look: most English translations,
"If anyone is to be taken captive, to captivity he goes;
if anyone is to be slain with the sword,
with the sword must he be slain."
- the Greek text here as both possibilities in understanding.
-前后文足以用来明白真实的真理
被掳掠的,接受掳掠 -- 受迫害的话,安然承受,无需用暴力抵抗对信徒的逼迫。即使被刀杀,性命被夺,神依旧保守。不为了这个会朽坏的肉体而争战,而是为了信靠基督所带来的永恒的生命。
-基督徒面对今日恐怖袭击:信心?
-王明道(家庭教会领袖):“中国的基督徒爱主的不少,敬虔的不少,乐于奉献的也不少,唯有有殉道心志的太少”。
-求主帮助我们轻看自己的生命。活着是基督,死了有益处。粉碎魔鬼的计谋,更深的知道信靠神,在祂里面寻找永恒。

Sunday, 2 October 2016

真葡萄树之家查经:《马太福音》29/9

Recall:
马太福音1 -- 耶稣的家谱,从亚伯拉罕开始,3*14代 up to Joseph and Jesus
contrast -- Luke 3, starts from Christ, goes up to Joseph/Mary, all the way to Adam, and God.
马太福音4:耶稣受试探,呼召门徒etc
马太福音5-7:登山宝训

经文:马太福音9:1-8
讨论问题:耶稣彰显权柄的目的是?
我的回复
1)给神带来荣耀、服从神(John 5.19 Jesus gave them this answer: "Very truly I tell you, the Son can do nothing by himself; he can do only what he sees his Father doing, because whatever the Father does the Son also does.)
2)出于爱和怜悯 -> 神不愿人受苦
3)让他的门徒能对他有信心,跟随他
静雯:让我们知道耶稣是可以信靠的、使人得救

Observations on 马9:9
- 这是作者的出场。他在税关,i.e. 在工作。
- 看到了很多人,耶稣却只针对马太说话。也没说要干嘛,只是让他跟从,马太就离开了工作岗位去跟从。(呼应马4:17-22)

Observe the connection between
马8:11
我又告诉你们:从东从西,将有许多人来,在天国里与亚伯拉罕、以撒、雅各一同坐席
马9:10
耶稣在屋里坐席的时候,有好些税吏和罪人来,与耶稣和他的门徒一同坐席。
“一同坐席”的重要意义

Matt 9:13 经上说:‘我喜爱怜恤,不喜爱祭祀’,这句话的意思你们且去揣摩;我来本不是召义人,乃是召罪人。”
First thoughts:
1) 耶稣着了门徒,所以按这个逻辑,门徒都是有病的罪人…… XD
2) “怜恤”,是他和罪人坐在一起的原因;祭祀在这里又是啥意思……律法?自义?
Matt 9:13 vs Hosea 6:1-6

来吧,我们归向耶和华!他撕裂我们,也必医治;他打伤我们,也必缠裹。
过两天他必使我们苏醒,第三天他必使我们兴起,我们就在他面前得以存活。
我们务要认识耶和华,竭力追求认识他。他出现确如晨光,他必临到我们像甘雨,像滋润田地的春雨。
主说:“以法莲哪,我可向你怎样行呢?犹大啊,我可向你怎样做呢?因为你们的良善如同早晨的云雾,又如速散的甘露。
因此,我借先知砍伐他们,以我口中的话杀戮他们,我施行的审判如光发出。
我喜爱良善,不喜爱祭祀;喜爱认识神,胜于燔祭。

Remarks: Since the book of Hosea is all about him marrying a woman who is not faithful, just like the relationship of God with Israel.
其实,看完了这一段之后就很明显了,以色列人,或者应该说全人类,都已经悖逆了神。神要来招的,从世人眼中的“罪人”或是那些看起来是“义人”的法利赛人,全部!都是罪人。只有一种分别,就是你承不承认自己是罪人罢了……

side note: another thread of story in Matt --> Pharises

Tuesday, 27 September 2016

Meditations on my work

Today, I had a conversation with Thinh about the meaning of research. This led to a 1-hour conversation about God XD which I am thankful for, that although I am a broken vessel, God is still willing to use me for His purposes and His glory.

But this is not the main point of today's meditation. The main point is: am I really doing my current work out of piety and passion to glorify God?
There are a few areas of consideration. First of all, is my current "big research direction" an expression of either managing the earth's resources or bringing good (as defined by God's standards) to mankind?
In some sense, quantum information is the research into manipulating information, which is kinda important for the digital age. I suppose quantum cryptography offers better security to the world as well. Also, I am able to become a witness in the workplace for God, just like today, which is nowadays scarce.
But neither of these reasons hit at my first love and passion for physics: to know the workings of nature better, to comprehend physical laws, and to showcase God's design/intelligence/creativity in a way that human beings will be able to see and appreciate.

On the other hand, am I showing the true integrity and excellence a Christian should demonstrate in the workplace? Maybe. But probably not enough. I could, and should have done better.

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3/10/2016
今天查经的时候,聊到关于自己在工作上是不是会依靠神?
跟大家分享的时候谈到了自己写论文的经验。不管是本科做毕设的时候,还是现在,写论文的期间,我在早上总会祈祷:神,今天,求你亲自和我一起写。若是没有祢,单靠我自己,哪怕是一句话我都写不好的。我只能依靠你。
所以,在我毕业论文的Acknowledgements里面,第一句永远都是感谢神,荣耀归于祂。

大家都蛮惊讶的。天牧问我为什么会这样做。
我想,我一直都认为自己不配学物理吧。我不够聪明,数学不够好,不如那些很厉害的物理学家。但是,在学物理的时候我总有一份无法形容的喜悦,那种快乐可以让我完全忘记自己的不足,只是单纯地赞叹物理的美。
而我也那么那么幸运;从读本科的奖学金、毕业时领的奖、博士的工作和世人赞许的目光……其实这一些我都不配得。有许多的人(比如跟我同届的物理系的同学们)比我聪明,也有许多人(像谢仲宇)比我努力执着上百倍,但是比起他们,我一直是“一帆风顺”。在物理的路上,我知道我是靠着神的恩典。我也知道学物理时感受的那份喜悦是神给的。如果没有祂这份赐予,人生将多么无趣。因为有物理,日子变得精彩,人生中也有了正面的激情。我虽然没有美貌,没有财富,没有人缘……但我愿意一生平凡地过,只要能每天睹见物理、真理的美好,我心满意足。
因此,我经常对祂说,不管在物理这条路上我走得多远,靠的都不是自己的实力,而是祢的带领。既然如此,祢把我带到哪里,祢就得负责 XD 听起来好像很耍赖,但感受确实是如此。

Sunday, 25 September 2016

24/9/2016 Delft堂证道笔记:《寻找人的主》顾弟兄

经文:
创世纪 3:8-9
天起了凉风,耶和华神在园中行走。那人和他妻子听见神的声音,就藏在园里的树木中,躲避耶和华神的面。耶和华神呼唤那人,对他说,你在哪里。

以西结 34:11
“主耶和华如此说:看哪,我必亲自寻找我的羊,将他们寻见。

路加福音 19:10
人子来,为要寻找、拯救失丧的人。

启示录 3:20
看哪,我站在门外叩门;若有听见我声音就开门的,我要进到他那里去,我与他、他与我一同坐席。


Testimony of Francis Collins
- worked on DNA sequencing, marvel at the biology world, lead to meditations about evolution vs design
- if man came only lfrom evolution based on random processes only, then there cannot be any ultimate meaning to life, except perhaps the passing on of "good" genes
- the observation that altruism does not fit the framework of evolution (remark: actually, people can explain "altruism" in a more generic framework of evolution?)
- became a strong basis for his faith: seeing God's love from His creation

In fact, we see the existence of God through 2 of His revelations: 1) Bible, 2) Creation.
We not only see His existence/signature, we also see that He loves and seeks us: whatever we need (air, water, sun, food etc) He gave us
the failure to acknowledge that leads to sin, judgement

- even then (Gen 2:16-17) when Adam and Eve disobeyed, God did not kill them instantly, instead He seeked them, pursued them
Gen 3v9: 你在哪里?表达了神的寻找,也是对我们的提醒:我们的状态究竟在哪里?
人的生命不止是物质可以满足的,而是需要神的爱才能真正满足
(但如果我拥有了神的爱,仍不满足?)
1 John 2:15-17 --- 即使信主之后,神仍然在呼喊我们!(启示录3:20是写给教会的)


表面上每周去教会的我们是不是真的内心火热,是不是真的视主为生命中的主?是不是真的把自己所有的事都交托给了神?

即使我们被你,“昏迷”而没有回应(like in a coma),神依然爱我们,依然呼唤我们。

别再让神等待,否则到了那一天,关在门外,哀哭切齿(reminds of Heb 3:15 " 经上说:“你们今日若听他的话,就不可硬着心,像惹他发怒的日子一样。”)


总结
神的寻找与呼唤对象
1)不信者 -神给予选择回应的自由
2)已信者 -神等待内心密室的打开
我们的回应:抓住现在这个当下去回应神的呼唤

25/9/2016 海雅堂听道笔记:袁安耀

启示 18:离开巴比         安耀    24/9

上文:17色的和大淫(就是这章的巴比伦),v16-17说兽必恨那淫,使他荒凉赤身,又要吃她的肉,用火把她掉。

大淫=大巴比=人手所造之城(tower of Babel),以人中心、世俗、拒绝真神的文明

每个人都是罪人,罪人的心中都有一座固城邑,用来抵真神;众人在一起时则心心相、城城相接 à 形成人世俗文明

魔鬼加快我走向深渊的脚步 à 模仿耶基督(启13),人以靠着他能够生生不息的能力+救赎

神的公不会允恶继续下去,降下刑判-> 直到最后的高潮,上帝的国、文化将取代世上的一切
-神使用(邪力)行公义:兽攻击大淫妇,两个邪恶不能永久共存
-神却不是邪恶的来源:最后兽也会进入硫磺之湖

v1-2    
天使的荣耀=神的荣耀
绚丽的巴比伦城倾倒(看似美好的一切崩塌)
以赛亚13:19-22
“巴比倫素來為列國的榮耀,為迦勒底人所矜誇的華美,必像神所傾覆的所多瑪、蛾摩拉一樣。其內必永無人煙,世世代代無人居住。亞拉伯人也不在那裡支搭帳棚;牧羊的人也不使羊群臥在那裡。只有曠野的走獸臥在那裡;咆哮的獸滿了房屋。鴕鳥住在那裡;野山羊在那裡跳舞。豺狼必在他宮中呼號;野狗必在他華美殿內吼叫。巴比倫受罰的時候臨近;他的日子必不長久。”

V5-7    大淫妇受到报应
受罚的原因:内心骄傲、亵慢,不在乎神的公义
以赛亚47:7-9
你自己說:我必永為主母,所以你不將這事放在心上,也不思想這事的結局。
你這專好宴樂、安然居住的,現在當聽這話。你心中說:惟有我,除我以外再沒有別的。我必不致寡居,也不遭喪子之事。
哪知,喪子、寡居這兩件事在一日轉眼之間必臨到你;正在你多行邪術、廣施符咒的時候,這兩件事必全然臨到你身上。

神却要拯救一部分的,祂的子民(v4
以赛亚52:11
你們離開吧!離開吧!從巴比倫出來。不要沾不潔淨的物;要從其中出來。你們扛擡耶和華器皿的人哪,務要自潔。
耶利米51:45
我的民哪,你們要從其中出去!各人拯救自己,躲避耶和華的烈怒。
耶利米51:6
你們要從巴比倫中逃奔,各救自己的性命!不要陷在他的罪孽中一同滅亡;因為這是耶和華報仇的時候,他必向巴比倫施行報應。
这种呼唤,跟对亚伯拉罕的吩咐是同样的道理:分离出来,分别为圣,离俗归圣,离开本族本家

我们靠着耶稣进入神的国,属灵意义上已经离开巴比伦,不再属于魔鬼。但是从现在到我们死去的一生中,我们仍要活在巴比伦城中,走过它à 成圣之路

不要与世界同流合污(属灵地位+敬虔生活同样地离开巴比伦)
哥林多后书6:14-15
你們和不信的原不相配,不要同負一軛。義和不義有什麼相交呢?光明和黑暗有什麼相通呢?基督和彼列(彼列就是撒但的別名)有什麼相和呢?信主的和不信主的有什麼相干呢?
基督徒的功课:如何离开巴比伦

教会历史的两份“答卷”:
1)出世 ── 修道主义,到深山里去,与世隔绝,昼夜祷告禁欲,过圣洁生活(施洗约翰传统的延续)
-初期教会中不常见,但是这些人很受教会中人的敬重
ex公元251,修道主义之父、沙漠教父,安东尼。从小非常虔诚,出生富有家庭。18岁丧父母,留下巨大财富+小妹妹。不追求世俗,一心想要过敬虔生活。捐出所有的财产,把妹妹交托给忠信的虔诚姊妹,自己去进修学道15年,走到沙漠里面的碉堡,朋友每半年送水+面包过去。25年中做了2件事:a)与情欲争战b)与魔鬼的权势争战。(人的软弱是如此之深!)
没有解决教会世俗化的问题——教会腐败,与世俗世界成为一丘之貉
当时的教会虽然实行修道主义,但那只是表面:以建修道院为借口征土地
造就了个人的属灵生活操练
2)入世--宗教改革后,进入世界工作、结婚、传福音
ex:马丁路德,为了实践圣经教导,和修女结婚。Luther:婚姻是一所品格的学校。磨练性格,真正灵性意义上地离开巴比伦。
入世的原理被滥用,教会的信徒入世太深:把自己基督徒的身份忘记了
ex:娱乐圈把基督信仰变成了一种时尚,只是表面—— 仔细看,他们的工作、言行举止仍然迎合世俗:“充斥泛神论,普世拯救论etc

总结:我们越陷越深……究竟如何离开BBL
***随时随刻拒绝贪婪***

18章常出现的形容:奢华
v11-17 几乎全是奢侈品,而不是必要品
用与世俗交易带来的奢华和丰富,来代替来神能给我们的丰盛:这就是玛门

-贪婪不在乎你有多少,而是不满
-贪婪=拜偶像
以弗所5:5
因為你們確實的知道,無論是淫亂的,是污穢的,是有貪心的,在基督和神的國裡都是無分的。有貪心的,就與拜偶像的一樣。
歌罗西3:5
所以要治死你们在地上的肢体,就如淫乱、污秽、邪情、恶欲和贪婪,贪婪就与拜偶像一样。
Ex:以色列1) 不满意沙漠生活,贪恋物质要回埃及,2) 不满意摩西上山太久开始拜金牛犊

现在的文明:我们活在这个时代!
ex: all you can eat,娱乐+信息(微信fb etc),甚至梦想、成就
我们每天都在受“万国荣华”的试探;拜魔鬼,就把万国的荣华给你……

v 20-23
当我们归向基督的时候,我们内心的巴比伦帝国也要被神毁去

结论
我们要以基督为至宝,将万事看为粪土,治死我们内心的情欲
用虔诚的心态去决定你的工作、工作的时间、地点etc
读经祷告固定下来
忠心做事,不要妄求

最大的挑战:建立规律的、有纪律的、平凡的,敬虔的生活习惯